choose us

at some point we gotta choose between what we want and what others want. everybody wants to control you; your family, your work, all aspects of life and all the people in them, it’s all about whether they can get you to do as they like

either we choose us, or we choose them. it’s not my fault nobody cares what I want, so it’s not my fault if my choices upset them

I know that you have some restlessness about this proposal and how I’ve been planning it, but the special part is that I’m doing it for you. More than just the actual down on one knee part, everything behind it is the real value of this; if I was a seasoned professional proposal person then the end result, even though it might be nicer, wouldn’t carry the same weight. You’ve always said you care most about effort in a gift, well planning this proposal for you is easily one of the most effort-taking things that I’ve had to do. It takes so much effort because idk what I’m doing and I am making decisions based on what I think you’d like; if you choose everything for me then it’s not as valuable anymore, no?

Even then there were a lot of things I just couldn’t handle doing without your input because this is a very new thing for me, I feel bad I had to do that. Ideally after I got the ring I shouldn’t need to ask you anything further but I couldn’t manage that so far. 

But what’s left I can manage; still not super easy for me, but I can do