culture as pressure

I guess no plans change as a result of a random conversation, but I’ve been feeling pretty jittery about this today and I had pretty much calmed down about it and now I’m just anxious again

sometimes I wonder if there’s some big sin i committed in a past life that I gotta make up for in this one. I literally mind my own business, I never poke or push anyone to cause any trouble, my whole personality is built around not bothering anyone. And yet I’m repeatedly thrown into situations where I’m cooked no matter what I do

at least I’m in control when I’m being deceitful, if everyone has the information then I have no way to influence the outcome anymore

I have no clue how big of a thing this might be. It might be tiny and nbd, or it might blow up into some larger conflict or people having ill-feelings towards each other

religion, culture & tradition have never really been a positive thing in my life, and clearly it continues to be that way. these things are meant to be unifying but instead they are agents of ideological division. this is why I don’t trust god or anything related, whether or not I believe in god’s existence

To me, they are polarizing things that tend to divide and exclude people based on ideology. I don’t put my trust in religion or culture or tradition because it’s fundamentally about rejecting something natural to oneself and adopting something unnatural to oneself