disconnect again

Tbh I’m not even that upset at you about this

I kinda guessed you’d respond the way that you did

but it’s very clear to me that we have relationship things we need to address and work on if we want life to be good

and hey I’m not saying I’m in the right, I think both of us are at fault for stuff

I don’t think I can succinctly describe the issue and resolve it with you in a couple of minutes

Doing something right now in attempt to make me feel better is just a bandaid fix, and I don’t think piling on bandaids works

I think fundamentally we have different priorities and expectations when it comes to the relationship, especially when considered alongside other aspects of life. That’s not fundamentally wrong in and of itself, but pretending that there is equality and then bandaid fixing things along the way is a recipe for big problems in my opinion

if we want to keep having a good functional, loving, supportive and happy relationship and marriage

I’m not completely in the right either, I don’t think either of us are without fault, but there needs to be some fundamental changes

It’s increasingly evident to me that leaving relationship stuff on autopilot is going to end badly

would you rather:

• go home and you get 3hours of your time back

• get off at mtp, we grab dons/mcflur/starbz & come to my crib to discuss (my rents prob won’t be home for most of the time we’re home cuz gym)

• get off at mtp, we grab dons/mcflur/starbz, stay at that location 

and in the scenarios that I pick you up, I need to be driving away from your house at 8:15 in order to make the dinner motive

I was thinking whether it’d be good or bad to come to my crib out of those two options, and tbh idek. Like if I’m being 100% honest, I don’t really like hanging out with you and my rents at the same time, it just causes me a lot of stress even when things are chill, cuz nobody is really comfortable or themselves in that environment. simultaneously the three of you make up my closest family and that’s never going to change, so I don’t want to keep having these stress-induced heart palpitations when being all together yk. idk, it’s just tiring to think about