I see you

yk, it’s tiring being a person. It’s really a lot to deal with. To have to gain consciousness every day and play the role of who you are day in and day out. And at the same time, you don’t have a director to tell you what’s next and how to do which scene, etc. rather, you gotta make all the decisions yourself and then act them out, every single day.

There’s a lot of fun to be had and some really amazing experiences that come from this daily cycle. But it’s still just a LOT, yk? especially when considering that this big movie you’re in has other people in it, doing the same thing you are but in completely different ways

I thought about this many years ago actually. And when I subsequently thought about what I want from a life partner it was summed up pretty easily with this in mind; someone that no matter what will always see that I’m just doing this daily cycle of acting out a life, unsure of how to do it right, what to do or what it all means. And will respond to me with empathy and acceptance.

I decided then that I would be this way to others, because I know what it’s like to so strongly want that acknowledgement. Not even help, although that would be great. Just someone who would look at me every day, and from a purely empathetic place tell me “I see what you are, I feel for you and I accept you”.

I’m not always 100% able to be that person for others or even my partner, but every once in a while for whatever reason, I’m brought back to this thought and I resonate with it again. And I reach the same conclusion about how to proceed from this point.

What I want to say is that I see you. I see who you are, I see who you’re trying to be. I see all the things that ail you, I see the hope and the uncertainty you have. I see that every day you wake up and you try your best to do the correct actions, but that you’re not truly sure if they are. I feel for this experience you’re piloting alone without any guide. and I accept you, I will ALWAYS accept you.