misery

I cried outta nowhere and I realized I’m so deeply miserable

I also realized that it’s always been this way, and it always will be

I don’t want to be stuck in this cycle of misery, distraction, crisis and pain anymore. Every happiness of mine is a distraction from misery, every day there is a looming crisis, and an internal fight between me and myself. Then I go through pain and anguish, then there is the temporary peace of the day ending. The truth is I go to sleep each day hoping that it’s my last, so that I don’t have to face the next day