https://signaldrift.pages.dev/tags/misery/Recent content in Misery on ~/signaldriftHugoen-usTue, 28 Jul 2026 00:49:11 +0000https://signaldrift.pages.dev/posts/misery-again/Mon, 27 Jul 2026 14:06:26 +0000https://signaldrift.pages.dev/posts/misery-again/<p>I’m sorry I didn’t speak to you about it, many times I feel very uncomfortable bringing things up to you</p> <p>I generally avoid talking to you about things I feel you may disagree with, which makes me hesitate to tell you things until I brace myself for it</p> <p>this is also the case when I’m not 100% certain about something; I will not bring things up to you if it’s not nearly-guaranteed, because doing so has burnt us really bad in the past</p>https://signaldrift.pages.dev/posts/misery/Fri, 24 Jul 2026 23:16:46 +0000https://signaldrift.pages.dev/posts/misery/<p>I cried outta nowhere and I realized I’m so deeply miserable</p> <p>I also realized that it’s always been this way, and it always will be</p> <p>I don’t want to be stuck in this cycle of misery, distraction, crisis and pain anymore. Every happiness of mine is a distraction from misery, every day there is a looming crisis, and an internal fight between me and myself. Then I go through pain and anguish, then there is the temporary peace of the day ending. The truth is I go to sleep each day hoping that it’s my last, so that I don’t have to face the next day</p>