Thoughts on ~/signaldrift

culture as pressure

Sun, 10 Aug 2025 21:15:31 +0000

I guess no plans change as a result of a random conversation, but I’ve been feeling pretty jittery about this today and I had pretty much calmed down about it and now I’m just anxious again

sometimes I wonder if there’s some big sin i committed in a past life that I gotta make up for in this one. I literally mind my own business, I never poke or push anyone to cause any trouble, my whole personality is built around not bothering anyone. And yet I’m repeatedly thrown into situations where I’m cooked no matter what I do

choose us

Sun, 11 May 2025 23:20:35 +0000

at some point we gotta choose between what we want and what others want. everybody wants to control you; your family, your work, all aspects of life and all the people in them, it’s all about whether they can get you to do as they like

either we choose us, or we choose them. it’s not my fault nobody cares what I want, so it’s not my fault if my choices upset them

reading assignment

Mon, 30 Oct 2023 01:21:02 +0000

i wanted to talk to you about something. Maybe it’s in my head but I feel like I’ve kinda been putting pressure on you about seeing each other more frequently, like even once a week.

I don’t wanna stress you out, when I think about living a day in your shoes I can understand how hectic it is. Don’t feel like you absolutely need need to see me once a week starting right right now if it simply isn’t feasible. There’s no rules, we make the rules :)